Has been close to 2 months since I last updated my blog. Too lazy to get my hands on this space.

So many things happened throughout these period. Wish all these was just a nightmare that I haven't woke up from. Broke up with the guy that I loved so much. Couldn't explain much of this heartache that I'm feeling. But it's really pulling me all the way down.

"Love doesn’t mean the same thing for everyone but I know what it means to me. It’s loving someone more than yourself, not caring what happens to you because you are willing to sacrifice everything in order for them to feel safe and happy. That’s what love is. Love is sacrifice and it’s selflessness. I love you, too bad you don’t love me."

2536368 9664, I really loved you. I still love you, always have, always will. But you don't love me back, not anymore.

I could give up everything just to have your heart on me again. But I'm too tired to fight for it. I'm afraid, I don't know what I'm afraid of, but I just have this unknown fear within me. It's more than distance between us now. Nothing could probably change your mind already.

I don't know what to say or what to do to make you come back, I'm suffering in silence everyday. Yes I put on my best smiles, but who knows that it's just a mask I'm wearing?

Maybe it's true. If we're meant to be we'll find our way back. Fate will decide for me.

I've been keeping up this habit of having a diary. If you ever ever read my diary, you'd probably tear. By then you'd understand how much I loved you. And I'm very sure no one will ever love you the way I do.

I'm really quite tired... This will probably be the last time I'm mentioning all these in my blog already. Shall keep everything to myself from now onwards.

Need to rant so badly. I don't know who I can turn to cus I know nobody knows exactly how I feel. Sometimes I really think keeping things to myself may be the best after all. Know why? People may have heard what you've done, but they don't know what you've gone through.

I'm really confused. I don't know if I'm making the right choice. My instinct tells me yes, but my heart tells me no. Actually I don't think all this matter anymore, but I just can't get over it. I can't go over tht this 7 months is all wasted. And my heart aches so so so much. I can't find words to say anymore.

You know what hurts me most? It's tht you're not putting in any effort. Remember tht morning when I asked if we shld continue this r/s, you told me yes. And you said, 'we'll try'. But no, it's still the same. Maybe our relationship really didn't matter to you long ago, I guess. You should have told me this long ago.

Sometimes I really feel like screaming 'fuck you' in your face so badly. Why would a couple not contact? Why would a guy not care about his girl? Why would a guy take his girl for granted? You fucking disappoint me to no extent. You know what? You've hurt me so much tht when people ask me, 'how do you feel?', I can actually answer them 'Oh I'm used to it'

If you think you're better off without me, then what's the point of holding onto this relationship? Now you tell me.

Never going to believe in love again. Love is fucking bullshit.

Pictures taken at the chalet during the march holidays :)

It was pretty much crowded at the chalet that night. And I love the ambience :) Had a bonding session with the clique as well! Hehehehe love you guys muackies! And we watched ju-on in the room and it totally scare the fuck outta me. Bth sia really, damn scary! Or maybe I'm too timid? Oh yes and my dear Eva kicked me off the bed during the show and I totally went 'WTF?!?!?!' Laugh till peng.

Cabbed over to Eunos aftermath to find Cwwh and Sean while Eva joined us aftermath. Couldn't catch much sleep tht night cus somebody was sick.. Ordered mac for lunch the next day and totally nua for the whole afternoon. Wanted to cook porridge for tht sick cat but Eva and I can't find rice in the entire kitchen... Went prawning in the evening and reached home around midnight. Totally K.O after I washed up.

Saturday, hit town with Eva and Sean. Went over to com center to repair my bb. Its less than 2 months old and its giving me problems already lor! But lucky me! They gave me a new bb! :) Shall take good care of it! Hehehehe~

Cabbed over to 216 to accompany Sean to work. Spend the whole night there and I can't stop laughing at how Sean wash the cups. Ended up I had to help him wash. Damn hilarious! And Eva became the cashier for the day as well. Hahaha! Cabbed home around 1am and Eva, Sean and Cwwh came up to my house. They left at 4. Sleepy me ):

Ok so I guess I enjoyed my holidays with the usual people! Can't wait for the next chalet, which will prolly be after O's.

I'm so stressed up these days. Need the motivation to study, urgh.

Hit town last friday with the girls. Had bff for lunch and I ordered 'Friendly Fire'.
Woah I could totally feel my tongue burning!!!!!!!!! I personally have a high tolerance level for spicy but that one uh.. rly so spicy I couldn't stop drinking water.. I still think macho cheese taste better..

Travelled to bugis aftermath. Wasn't a rly fruitful trip that day.. Cos something unpleasant happened. Oh well..

But still..

We made full use of time and took all the pictures below. Ha ha ha I find it so hilarious, (if you get what I mean)...












Oh I remember buying a pink helium balloon and I wanted to suck the helium but ended up the balloon flew away. SADGIRL95.. If I can manage to get julia to upload the video, I swear it's gna make you laugh till peng seriously. Ok I'm retarded whut?!

Alright got to meet the boy that night as well~ Hehez.

The following day, went for movie @ JP with julia and eva. Caught 'The great great world'. AWESOME!!!!! I don't understand why some people don't like it. The storyline was so great lor! Rate it a 4/5.







Decided to head to bukit batok for steamboat since there's no other places we can go..

And as usual we had a lot of dirty jokes that night... Ha ha ha laugh till my tummy ache...... I seriously love dinner session with them. Never fail to brighten up my whole day. Heh ♥

And then on sunday..

Julia ran away from home. So I went out to meet her. And then we cabbed back to my place at night with the boy.

Hehehe they had dinner at my place and they left after my parents came back.
Oh and my parents were pleased with the boy. Hahaha (;

Okay so that's all for tonight. Will update again the next time I come online.. Which will be.......... a few days ltr?

Because... I've got my new toy ^.^


And my theme is super cute lor it looks like this:


Ok toodles! ♥